I wish I'd received this poem a week or two ago:

Winter

SHIT! It's Cold!!

by Abigail Elizabeth McIntyre

I'm Pissed So I'm Making a Blog Entry


Ok, so PK and Kerry know there's this guy I've been talking to online on and off for about a year now. Well, tonight is the final straw. When he's in the room, and doesn't say boo to me, leaves with "her" doesn't say bye, nothing, I figure it's time to cut my losses for a second and final time. No going back now. I will NEVER stream there as long as he is owner. I have blocked him on my msn, although I don't think I'll put him on ignore in chat. I will only go to that site for Kerry's streams, if he's there I will pretend that he isn't. He said he wants to come visit me after he moves? Fuck him! He ain't coming anywhere near me! I've had it with whatever game he's playing. There is nothing he can say to me now to change my mind. And on that note, here is a "poem" that I wrote a couple months ago (and added to tonight), regarding me and him.


First Love

It seems like just yesterday
We started talking
Having so much in common
Becoming fast friends

I started thinking about more
More for my life
More for yours
Together you and I

Then we slowed down
Not together but not apart
I wondered what was happening
Was this how it would end?

You have old friends
Who mean so much to you
I found it hard
To compete

Letting you go
Seemed the best idea
You deserved more
Than what I could give

I thought I was over you
Thought I was ok
Till I saw you again
Smooching and kissing her

I tried to survive
Showing no pain
Just saying hi
No hugs or laughs

Until that day
You begged for my number
I thought twice
Before giving it out

When I heard your voice
So calm and soothing
Telling me things
I couldn’t see for myself


I promised to be friends
Or at least to try
Even though I want more
Realizing that won’t be

You’re my first love
In my heart forever
I’ll never get over you
Do I even want to?

My heart is breaking again
Caused by your indifference
You ask things of me
Then don't give in return

How can I be friends
With someone who's never around
Who never talks to me
Does he even see me?

Was it something I said?
Was it something I did?
Am I too innocent?
Or are you too jaded?

So I'm forcing you out
Never to return
My heart is now closed
Forever to you

They say time heals
But do I want it to?
I'd rather keep this pain
Than go through it again

Love sucks
When it doesn't work out
But will it ever
Work out for me?